So it looks like my neighbor’s wife is being watched by her husband now so I’m not sure if this will go any further anytime soon.
But I have been talking to someone on line with general chatting. I find myself being attracted to her and it started me to write poems and blog for the first time in a long time.
The biggest fear and what makes me nervous is if they like me the same way? I know what she looks like and I actually feel for your personality before her looks. She sounds like a very kind and intelligent woman, but she doesn’t know what I look like and it sounds like that is not what she looks at first. Plus she is not in the best situation right now either. I know she is hurting too. I know my situation isn’t that good either for many reasons as well.
I would love to message her directly, but I don’t think she will answer it so I will wait until she messages me first. This way I can verify if she is interested in me that way or not.
I kinda hold back from being hurt in the past and other stuff that happened. I’m just not happy right now and wish I can find someone that makes me happy. Even if we stay friends and nothing else. But I hope it goes further than friends. You can kinda say its an online crush I have on her.